“Dear God, please help me learn how to concentr… what was that?”
That’s the ADHD Prayer.
Why is my blog site only half started? after six months? Because…
Squirrel!
Because I can’t start just one site. I have to start three sites at the same time. Why?
Because I have ADHD and my brain won’t stop at just one good idea. It has to pile on several “hey, that gives me another idea!” moments.
So this is still a work in progress.
And covid is brutal on my mental health. The isolation tears me down daily. I have to work so hard just to stay at the surface. It’s emotionally exhausting. I want it to end.
So instead of spending my energy developing this site into the blog I want it to be as part of my planned Doctor of Ministry degree, I distract myself with my genealogy sites that provide a more immediate fun hit.
But I don’t beat myself up for those distractions, because I understand they’re actually a form of self-care. Life has robbed me of the daily things that feel good, so I have to replace those losses with other things that feel good that I can do at home in isolation. And tinkering with my genealogy websites feels good. It distracts me, not from more important work, but from the sad feelings of being stuck inside with just my two kids and our dog.
I love my kids and our dog. But I need more. I need people. I need hugs. I need interaction and stimulation.
The vaccines are coming. It will be over at some point.
God is with us. We are not alone. And all will be well. And all will be…
What was that?
Squirrel.
